Hey Dream Lover,
It’s been five years and I just wanted to write you a quick letter to let you know how much you mean to me. I think back to when we met. Yeah, I know, I’d seen you around before many times but when we REALLY met, do you remember? It was in that tiny bar in Greeley. I gotta admit, I almost didn’t give you a chance. It seemed like a lot of work to be with you. I wasn’t sure if it was worth it. But you had everything I always wanted in a love. You were a little rough around the edges, but kind. You didn’t show all your cards at first; I had to figure you out. I wanted to get you I had to really go for it.
I think we can both agree the first night was lost in a drunken daze. I was nervous, but you were encouraging. My hands were shaking and my voice quivered. I never felt more at home, and yet, completely uncomfortable at the same time. But that’s why I loved you right away. I never felt more myself… no, I never felt more like the person I wanted to be than our first night.
Well, its been five years, baby, and I wouldn’t change a thing. People thought you were just a phase I was going through. I think some people HOPED you were a phase. But I think we always knew from the beginning that this was a forever thing. We proved the doubters wrong. Sure, my mom still isn’t that thrilled about you but she’s coming around.
You’ve been there for me through so much. Together we’ve braved broken hearts, and lost jobs, and depression. You’ve always been there. You never left me. On my darkest days I knew I could always find you waiting for me in a seedy bar on Colfax, surrounded by all my friends and a cloud of weed smoke. God, you are the most beautiful and magical on those nights. In those dark corners of the city I smile like a idiot just thinking about how lucky I am to have you in my life.
I just wanted to say thank you. You taught me to have voice. You taught me to be myself. You taught me to work hard. You’ve taught me to look at the world and appreciate every moment. You’ve given me family, community, a purpose, a passion. You showed me all the things I love about myself. You saved my life. For this I am forever grateful.